Emotional disaster

Sometimes I feel like I have no one to confide my inner thoughts for fear they will be rejected as silly or even worst, pathetic.

It's this kind of voice in my head that makes me feel as if I'm a glass full of water that always spills even with a small nudge. One word or one wrong move, regardless if it's intentional or not, results in me reacting too strongly. I know I shouldn't but it's hard to do otherwise.

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The brief walk around the neighbourhood eased my bored mind. It didn't matter that it was raining and windy - it actually felt good. it was relaxing. Although city air is not exactly the recommended fresh air, I welcomed it. 

Fall is definitely not my favourite season but today was just perfect.

it's been awhile

Every now and then, I question where my life is heading. Are all my decisions right? Right for now? Right for my future? Am I really doing what I want or is my life really just a product of everyone else's idea of how it should be?

Sometimes, I even wonder if I am contented because I'm scared to explore another possibility or simply because I am really where I want to be. 

I really don't know.

Despite of these thoughts, I am mostly happy. :)

oh june

It feels silly to write my thoughts now.

It feels unnatural to share and talk about my problems when just merely thinking about it makes me feel silly. It really shouldn't be a problem. The solution is simple yet I choose to make it complicated. 

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I hope to write again one of these days. Not about problems but about blessings and happiness.