Tuesday, August 25, 2009

blab

I can't seem to write about anything.

Blink.
Blank.
Blink.

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Sometimes, I find myself helpless at work. I end up regurgitating the same old "I wish I could tell you what is going on but the doctors haven't said anything yet". And when I do know the answer to their question, I kinda wished I didn't because of the bad news they are about to get.

It's not always the same but the sometimes is enough to make a dent in my eagerness to work.

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I wish the heat would stay just a little bit longer.

Saturday, August 15, 2009

form a single line please

I went to a wedding and J and I were asked the same question but in different ways: (1) When are you getting married? (2) So are you next? (3) Did he ask yet?

Now multiply that about 20 times.

My answer always began with a nervous awkward giggle followed by a somewhat hurried "oh no plans yet". J's answer vary slightly to an awkward no reply just a smile or his favourite joke, "she didn't propose to me yet".

Sigh.

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We had another one of those heart-to-heart talks after watching the movie, The Time Traveller's Wife. No, it wasn't because of the movie but more so because of my mood change.

I can honestly say that it is difficult to talk about something sensitive while in public. I was on the verge of tears when a lady decided to sit on the bench 5 inches away from him. Erm. It felt so weird that I wanted to laugh out loud but only managed to let out a sarcastic giggle (if such a thing exist).

Personal space aka bubble-around-me felt violated so I got up and pointed at another bench while looking behind in case she follows.

Erm.

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Two things on THE LIST*: take dance lessons and rent a sailboat for an hour.

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

mental

block.

That must be it.
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Sometimes I can be VERY unreasonable. It's almost sickening how I can be happy one moment and without so much as an untimely silent moment and my mood changes. I feel like this crappy weather we've been having - sunshine and rain, sunshine and rain with momentary breaks of gloom.

Frig. *censored :$

I need to wake up from this mess that is my mind.

Tomorrow sounds like a good time to start.
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A tag line that I would like to resonate in my life: When was the last time you did something for the first time?
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Skinny is not in.