Friday, July 31, 2009

on the other side

He's missing again.

Adventurous or stupid? I can't say but either way applies. I can't help but call out to his made-up name hoping that makes a difference. So far, complete failure.

Come back, turtle.
Someone from that small box you're trying to get away from misses you.

After work, I met up with J to accompany him to the ER. Let's just say that it sucks to be on the otherside of that nursing station. I am but a patient/companion when I'm not wearing that stethoscope around my neck and the only thing I am good for is hopefully explain the medical jargon tossed around. So there we were, for more than 5 hours in a small room hoping the doctor will call out his name. He fell asleep but for the life of me, I can't sleep sitting up or lying on an uncomfortable vinyl-covered chair.

Unfortunately, my friend was not working that night, otherwise we could have gotten more information out of her. His nurse was a little too aloof to be approached - I don't blame her though.

Thankfully, nothing serious. :)

I am amused by this song: The Bobo Song by Gloc 9

Today was the sunniest day I have seen for a long long time.
Thank you for the break!!

Tuesday, July 28, 2009


It's sad to admit that I have lost interest in a lot of things.

I remember spending money and time filling up jars and whatever container I could find with stars of varying colours and designs.

I was once interested in reading books. But now, I haven't even finished the last book I bought.

I knew about cars before. I appreciated the paint jobs, the rareness of old cars and the curves of its body. And now, I could care less.

There was a time when I couldn't stop playing video games - racing or fighting. I was somewhat good at it. I haven't touched my DS and Wii for months and even though I miss them, I can't be bothered.

I loved taking pictures of everything and anything - including myself. I carried my camera everywhere I go no matter how ordinary the day is. Nowadays, I take pictures when I'm in the mood and when the occassion calls for it.

What is wrong???

And the sad thing about this realization is that the only thing I am truly interested in is something I can't afford and feasible all the time.

Saturday, July 25, 2009

hi ho

They say it comes in three's.
Another superstition?
We still secretly dread it.
It's up there with the question, "is it full moon tonight?".

You might laugh, but you don't know how it is.
You don't know what we go through.


It's been getting more tough to get through the day now. Recession? Oh you nurses don't feel it because you'll always have a job. Yes, you are right. But have you ever thought of what is really happening?


It's not all gloom.
I see some ray of sunshine every now and then.
It can't all be about what's wrong.
It just can't be.

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

just a thought

Is a relationship suppose to reach a plateau?

The point of no surprises, no just-because-flowers, conversations that only revolve around hi-how was your day and the time you just take everything for granted.

Can it also mean being comfortable with each other enough to not doing anything special or out of the ordinary but know that it is already special?


I have S.A.D.

Sunshine when will you come back?

No, I don't want a pretend peeking-in-behind-the-clouds kind of day. I want a day I can almost feel the sweat running through my back. I want a day that I can wear my sunglasses without feeling as if I'm hiding a black eye. I need a day to have the option of just wearing a tank top, skirt or flip flops without regretting it.


Sunday, July 19, 2009

dun dun dun

After much debate last week, I decided to get a haircut. Lucky me, I got a talkative hairdresser. He talked about his past girlfriend and how much of a "weirdo" she is. Apparently, she would be happy one moment and completely lash out on him the next.

And sitting here right now, I realized that "that's like me!".


So, now it's official. I'm weird.

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

ahhh vacation

I've been eating food we brought back from our trip non-stop. Breakfast. Lunch. Snack. Dinner. Breakfast consists of a cup of green tea with tarts and some biscuit I found at the grocery store. When there's nothing to eat for lunch or dinner, pancit canton and orange-mango or sweet ponkan juice saves the day. Every now and then I snack on yema, uraro, pastillas and tamarind candy. We've banned polvoron from our things-to-buy since everyone's sick of them and they're left on our cupboards for a very very long time. Ewww.


There's really not much to say about our vacation except that it was fun and definitely memorable. I haven't seen some of my relatives since I moved here while some of them longer than that. I'm even surprised that no one dared mention "naaalala ko nung ganito ka pa kaliit". I'm kind of concerned that the reason they didn't say anything along those lines was because I haven't changed. Erm. Anway, every day there was a celebration and never a dull moment which is a far cry from what happens here. It's been a week since I've been back and I feel like I've been stuck at home to sleep and eat all day. Erm. Then again, what kind of vacation would that be if I'm bored all the time?

I wish I could go back every year without compromising my other plans of visiting other places and saving money for the "future" though.

My sister is trying to convince me to take vacation to visit our family in US for a few days and my friend wants me to visit her. Now if only both places didn't require a plane ride and a few hundred dollars worth of hard-earned cash, I would have packed my bags and cleared my schedule without hesitation. In saying that, I'm not ruling out the possibility. If my manager gives me the go, then why not. J is also going to Philippines for a month and is hoping I join him too. I said yes only if (a) he pays for my ticket (b) my manager agrees and (c) he gives me a cheque with the amount of money that I would have made if I didn't go on vacation. With those conditions, all signs point to no. Sigh.

Sunday, July 12, 2009


While waiting for our flight back home, we decided to have an early breakfast. What can you buy with a P500 bill? We chose a ham and cheese sandwich without a drink to save us from getting up too frequently during the long flight. As we were paying ,an old man was also paying for his sandwich when the cashier informed him, "wala po kaming panukli eh". Understandably because change for P1000 early in the morning is impossible. My sister and I volunteered to pay for whatever he wanted to eat because what will we do with our leftover money anyway. He was so grateful that he suggested, while writing down his address and phone number, that if by any chance we happen to drop by Washington, he would be more than happy to have us as guests.

This small gesture was then repaid by a kind man on the airport. He placed all four of our heavy luggage to the trolley without us asking. I guess it was obvious enough that we were struggling.

It just shows that Karma's not a bitch all the time. :D

On another note, an old woman who bought a hotdog sandwich at the same store complained with an attitude saying, "sa AmeriKa nirereklamo ang mga ganito" as she shoved the sandwich back to the cashier. She insisted that she get a new one because the one she purchased what too hard. Yes, we understand how upsetting that is, especially at this time of the day, but who are you to make a scene like that. Did you really have to mention where you're from? Nakakahiya. People like her need a serious lesson on proper manners.

Maybe I should have said, "sa Canada hindi ganyan magreklamo mga tao". Sigh.

I wonder which side of Karma she'll be meeting.

Friday, July 10, 2009


While packing our luggage, my dad casually asked my sister and I if we were bringing our stethoscopes. We both laughed and said, "what for?". What can you do with a stethoscope aboard a plane without any medical history of the passenger anyway? And so what if I can hear his or her hearbeat or the gushing of air in to his or her lungs? Nothing. Call a doctor I suppose?

In any case, on our way to Philippines we heard THE announcement we always dread for when travelling - If there is any medical personnel, doctor or nurses aboard the plane, please proceed to the back for some assistance. Dun dun dun. We looked at each other and for a moment and debated if we should go. Of course, conscience and responsibility prompted us to stand up and walk towards the back. We introduced ourselves to the stewardess who kindly informed us that there is a doctor assisting the passenger already. Saved! She still asked us for our seat numbers in case we were needed. Crisis averted.

Of course, that's not the end of it. On our way back here, I woke up with the same announcement. This time, its a small plane where I can see and hear the passenger in need of assistance. Luckily, there were two doctors already attending to the woman who kept saying, "I'm not feeling well". Saved again! Both of them were fine and we all went on with our lives except for one curious passenger sitting beside my sister. I almost pushed her out of her seat because she was practically straining her neck trying to see what`s going on. She`s the type of person who would stop mid-highway to see a car accident. Erm.


I'm just not THAT confident in my emergency-what-to-do skills yet to be called out like that. Maybe someday I won't hesistate to get up and ask, "how can I help you`?