I would like to wake up when everything is how it is supposed to be.
I hate change.
I hate disappointments.
I hate how things are unravelling.
I am tired of playing mindgames.
I am fucking sick of thinking too much.
Afraid to say and do the wrong thing.
Why do I get the punishment too?
I don't understand.
I don't wanna be that girl.
It seems like the farther I distance myself from her, the closer I am to becoming her.
It's a pointless battle.
I say one thing and act the other.
Can I just be two people then?
The one who can just move on and remain to be the one who can blindly accept how things are.
Why can't I just say fuck it like how other people would?
Let me vent.
Eventually my thoughts will be clear.