ta-da

Lesson of the day: Breakfast/lunch breaks are a luxury, not a necessity.

It's been proven time and time again. It's almost to the point of being grateful for getting a chance to eat my lunch and have a bathroom break.

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Countdown to vacation begins!!

Can't. Wait. To. Leave. This. Behind.

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and i thought i was bad

First, he wanted a condo.
Then, he pondered about getting a new car.
Now, he's looking for a house.

Everyday it's different.

I have offered support, monetary and otherwise, to whatever he feels like as long as he makes up his mind to no avail. I have even told him he's like a girl the way he changes his mind. Instead of being adamant about not being one and finally making a decision, which is what I would have done, he laughs and agrees. Erm.

If I had money, I would have just purchased one of the many things he want and tie a huge ribbon around it.

Just to get it over with.

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If that is any indication of how I would buy a house or anything big, I apparently am not allowed to do it myself. Otherwise, I would flip a coin and get it over with.

I am hopeless.

if

If I had my way, I'd take a short day tomorrow and either stroll in the park or in the mall - Ipod blasting and cellphone off.

anyway

My tantrum passed and I am better.

It was merely a lapse of judgement or too much of it that led me to throw a fit and shake my fist in the air. Of course, that's just a figure of speech. I usually sulk until I reach some sort of boiling point and then burst to tears.

Crisis averted.

Erm.

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The movie buff in us emerged after hibernation and we watched Angels and Demons, X-Men: Wolverine and Star Trek. I must say I'm impressed by the last one - not a dull moment. X-men was such a disappointment that I only got excited when Agent Zero was there. :D

Anyway, more to look forward to. I just hope J doesn't become a traitor and see Transformers without me. Hmp. This week will hopefully be Terminator and in a few months, G.I. Joe.

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Two more night shifts to survive. If only my last night shift would be the model of how night shifts would go, I wouldn't mind. :D

really now

I am not entirely sure what to think and how to feel.

wt*

Erm.

Total turn off I tell you.

take the plunge

I've gotten in trouble for being impulsive/stubborn/stupid (not sure which one applies - varies on my mood too) this week and I'm not sure if today will be added to it.

I bought a Wii Fit.

Cons: taking L.O.A. as needed, "saving up" for Phil vacation, paying for other bills
Pros: more use for my web-covered Wii console, some sort of exercise regime, motivation to gain much needed weight to not be "underweight"

What I learned? I need to gain at least 20 lbs to be within the normal BMI. Ack!

This is my last purchase for myself. I HOPE!

daily mantra

I will not be annoyed.

I will not be annoyed at small things.

I will not be annoyed at everything under the sun.

I will not be annoyed for no apparent reason.

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If for some reason I break this, I will tear myself out of this computer and be away for enough time to punish myself. If I still continue to do so, I will stop watching TV and if that doesn't go well, I will leave my Ipod when I go out.

Drastic?

Yes.

But there is something really wrong with me and I need to save myself from self-destruction before things get worst. :)

all you need is imagination

When we're busy, we don't eat. We might squeeze in a smoothie/coffee/tea break while charting and still get up when we're called. If we're about to faint, shake because of low sugar or couldn't concentrate any longer, we beg for a few minutes to buy something and eat it on the way or sit for 15 minutes. We push for our patients to eat healthy but we settle for chocolates, candies and cookies brought by families as our source of sustenance. That's how it is.

Bathroom breaks escape us sometimes. If we try to go and there is someone in the washroom, we might end up waiting for hours to have another chance. We get worried when our patients are not able to pee after 4 hours. Meanwhile, there are days I've gone through the day without a bathroom break - that's more than 12 hours if anyone is counting. That's how it is.

When we're tired, we laugh. We start laughing at silly things like thinking that someone said that the patient's last name is "Sulong" instead of "so long". We start making weird sounds, humming out loud or just plain giggling for no apparent reason. We have to believe that laughter is the best medicine, at least on ourselves. That's how it is.

It's Nursing Week soon and we all need a pat on our shoulders. Some of us may choose to wear a temporary tattoo of "Super RN" on our cheeks or arm for the fun of it - courtesy of management. Some of us will probably just be like Clark Kent, wear our normal clothes but still remain to have super human powers. We all have our moments and we all have flaws. When may vent, call-in sick or give away our shift, trust me on this - we need it. That's really how it is.

whatever

Sometimes, I baffle myself.

I hate that I win almost every single arguement/fight. He always says sorry and dismisses whatever I say. He pleads, "please don't be upset with me". It then angers me more which lead to unnecessary tears and burst of emotion.

The funny part is that I second guess myself and think whether or not it was even worth to fight about. The worst part is that he glosses over everything. Sigh.

Whoever suggested that we shouldn't go to bed mad seems to be living in a fantasy world.