roses are red

A month from now is our anniversary. I've been thinking about a gift because I'm sentimental/corny like that. So far, I've been on the fence whether I want to be romantic or practical. Should I get a lovey dovey kind of gift or something he likes like Lego. Choices, choices.

I went the latter route for my Christmas and birthday gift to him. It felt funny. It almost feels like we're old couples who would rather ask what each other wanted. He, on the other hand, decided to be romantic - in his own way. I gave him a DVD set of some series he's been talking about while the other one resulted from a trip to an electronic store for a pick-what-you-want-and-I'll-pay-for-it. Erm

When does it end? The sweet, corny phase of any relationship. Hmmm.

my heart beats for you

As I type this, I can feel my heart beat faster and harder.

Palpitations.

This is not new.

I can't seem to recall when it exactly started though.

It's quite tiring.

To be aware of every lub-dub beat.

I feel the need to inhale and exhale deeper.

I've been thinking about going to the doctor for a visit.

What do I say?

You see, I've been having palpitations.

I know what the next question would be.

Have you been under stress lately?

My reply - everyday I work.

But why does my heart beat like this even on my days off?

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I gave J a birthday card.

He left the last one at a restaurant.

I wrote something sweet and then I wondered, when will I get a reply?

I want a card too.

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I want to be carefree again.

Even for one day.

One full day.

Hello new year

I don't have a New Year's Resolution.

It seems like nothing changed from the previous year anyway.

I've let go of the past.

Somewhat.

I look forward to the future.

Kind of.

It's hard when you don't have a 5-year-plan.

Erm.

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I decided to tie my hair like Chun-li at work.

I joked, I wanna be like her when I grow-up.

The real reason: I needed my hair to be curled for New Years.

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I have one more holiday get-together to go to.

They say, wear upscale casual.

What's that?

Hmmm.

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I don't know how to get my thoughts across anymore.

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Happy New Year!