funny how it keeps coming back

taken from: A Softer World

I dreamt about my uncle again. It didn't look like him but I know it was him. In my dream he left a notebook with notes, words of wisdom and drawings for my aunt and cousin. He knew his time was almost up so he prepared something for them.

It may not look like him but I know it would be something he would do if he only knew.

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I'll always miss you and I'll never forget.

denial

me: Aww, she's so cute.
him: Who?
me: Umm..she walked right in front of us, it's impossible you didn't see her. I like what she's wearing.
him: Oh, I didn't notice.
me: Can you not pretend you didn't see her so we can talk about what she was wearing?
him: Well...
me: I like her skirt.
him: If I said you should wear something like that, you'll get mad.
me: So now you admit you did see her.

I must admit, it is hard for him to win. :S

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Another shift, another sleepless night. Will I be happy if I quit and work somewhere else? Is it nursing itself that is burning me out or the work load that they keep throwing on my plate without taking something else?

If it weren't for the good days, I would be easily swayed.

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I think I gained some weight. At least a few people have told me I look like I did.

That works for me :)

reminder

Instead of asking

Why do bad things happen to good people?

ask

Why do good things happen to bad people?

If you know the context, you would never ask the first question again. :)

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It was a good Sunday. A wake-up call and a gentle reminder that there is a reason for everything. It may not be clear but it is there. There is a grand plan.

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There are days when I can't let out my frustrations. It's either no one understands or they are going through the same thing. Sometimes, I just need a good cry. Forget the fact that there are nights that anxiety alone can upset my stomach, initiate palpitations and cause sleepless nights. It is what it is. I just have to suck it up and do what I have to do.

Today, I felt like crap. It didn't help that yesterday I was frustrated at J but more so myself that it carried over until I have to get up and get ready for work. Monday blues I suppose.

I really need a dose of sunshine.